** What happened to me? OMG, I have not been updating my life here on xanga at all! well, there was an accident i reli have to record it here so here goes the story... i was texting my friend yesterday and was talking about some serious stuff so when i was trying to say something to show my support to my friend i accidentally send the msg to the wrong person... = = and there was some sensitive words on my msg.... well, it's because it was too late at night and i was sleepy i didn't realize i choose the right person to send I AM SUCH A STUPID DUMB ASS!!!! lucky that the wrong person has not mistaken me nor i got him into trouble... LUCKY but still... must be reli careful next time = = WHY AM I SO CARELESS?????? ** ** my college best buddy is coming back soon and she called me this morning too bad i was on my way to work but i reli appreciate her calling me i worried about her so much reli need to see her when she's back and give her the fullest support ever baby, GANBADE!!!!!! remember our promise? we'll meet at the top of the mountain i know we will ** ** time flies by three weeks ago was my first college graduation anniversary okay... well.. and it's time for me to do my own evaluation for my first year of real life hum.... the first couple months after graduation, i was hanging around in LA and try on some jobs i never imagine i would work on just have myself a break before i reli started working thanks for Mr. P, he did give me some good time for my last summer days then was called by someone offerring me an interview for a job i wanted for since i passed the phone interview i came back to macau for the "face-to-face" interview besides that, i also have other reasons for flying back to macau it was family-related stuff, so i dun wanna talk about it here a week after i was back to macau, i already started my first real job after college graduation it was october 07 that can tell how procrasinated i was... =_= spend 4 months hanging around before starting a real job i didn't get use to the my life here in macau for nearly 4 months till January 08 lucky that sonia was back from UK as well and she got the same weird feeling as mine and she became my "weird" feeling sharing buddy hum... she was my best friend in high school anyway, hahaha and we did crazy stuff back then till now, i reli dun understand why i was doing those stuff in fact, i have not regretted doing stupid stuff during high school times i actually enjoyed it... it was fun, hahaha and now, i looked back, i laughed at myself ^^ anyways, back to reviewing my life for the pass year i knew long-D relationship is probably difficult and both me and sonia were experiencing it since we were back to macau and eventually we both broke up with our what we called ex-boyfriend now that's funny and what's funnier is that my other friends that were experiencing long-D broke up as well well, so based on this unverifed statistical analysis long-D relationship is reli hard to be LONG-LASTING and probably it is correlated to how long the distance as well... lol and my "breaking-up" process with Mr. P ended January well, we broke up in a funny way, at least, in my point of view then i became single again OO... forgot to say... i have to thank you one person i knew that person since i started working and i reli reli appreciate that person THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU and what else can i say? i hope if that person is reading my xanga, that person will know i am talking about him... ^^ and i got to met silvia when i was working on my first job she was an intern back then but it was funny that this world is so small and you could just meet someone you knew before so easily... hum hope she has a bright future no matter how then time passed and just right before Chinese New Year i got an offer for another job at another place all of a sudden so sudden that it surprised me and so i left my first job and started working on my second job hum... what can i say about my second job? it was good, good, and good have been learning so much till now still learning thank to the people who taught me stuff and those who let me fall so that i can learn from mistakes you are the BEST then in March, something i do not reli want it to happen happened to my family i dun wanna talk about this now i was depressed for many days and nearly gave up something i was working toward for a long time i picked it up again a few months after that incident though and things are getting a bit better now then here came April 19, my birthday and a typhoon hit macau what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!! the first year i was back to macau for my b-day and that stupid typhoon destroyed my day i am not going to forget this!!! plus it was a weekend!!!!!!! May was okay and so some little trouble thing was happening around me i just left that shitty issue alone and let time dealt with it and it's still Work-in-Process now hope it will end soon or i will end it i toke my first week of June off to celebrate my first year of college graduation to me, it was supposed to be a celebration but i was working on my "first year milestone" that week it was nothing special to someone and it was tiring and boring and i got to stay in macau for most of my vacation days to complete it but i know it would eventually pay off maybe five years later? ten years later? twenty years later? hum..... who knows, hahaha and that concludes my first year of college graduation..................... ** ** hum................. i noticed something since i broke up with Mr.P i learnt not to give answers directly i became more secretive about my life by all means (love, family, friends, etc) or maybe i just think i dun need to report my life to anyone that's why i rarely wrote a word on xanga these days... and if one day, i was talking to you about how i feel about my life, please expect that i am reli treating you as a reli reli reli good friend i wouldn't bother to say a shit about my life unless i treat you as a real friend and if i challenge you on your issues it's because i wanted to help you solve your problems (if i only could, lol....) ** | 
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i never trusted myself...
Hi all,